I feel like a kid who just started summer break and is missing all of her friends and the routines already. The last few days have been REALLY DEPRESSING around here. I haven't had little ones around during school hours for years, but I've filled up my days with housework, errands, my bow business, and with SPORTS!
I miss my kids already and all of their daily summer adventures. Even if it just meant driving them to their friends' houses and hearing a comment or two about their day.
Bows have slowed down to a mere trickle so that doesn't consume more than a few days a month now. I guess you could say I'm semi-unemployed or semi-retired, whatever sounds best.
But last night I think I figured it all out. What I really am missing right now is FOOTBALL! This is the time of year where I run around all day to get everything done because our evenings are spent on the bleachers watching 2 to 3 games a week! I miss packing the car with blankets (for padding and for warmth), filling up jugs of ice water, making game snacks to munch on during the games, spending my mornings on the phone or in meetings with the other team moms planning the weekly dinners and game parties, making dinner plans for those away games, etc, etc, etc! That's been our life for the past 7 years! I miss seeing all of my "boys" on the team and catching up with all of their parents on the bleachers. Many of those boys have now received mission calls and many more have moved away to college. We plan on going to a few games, but it just won't be the same. Jordan is helping Tom with Max's 6th grade team as the quarterback coach so we'll have to go see a few of their games too.....it's going to be hard to cheer for AF though, but we'll do our best.
I wasn't prepared to say goodbye since we thought we still had 3 years left of it with Jake. But he decided that golf was more his thing. He worked DANG HARD all summer long on improving his game and we are all so thrilled that he made the high school JV golf team! But it's not a sport where parents can come and watch and cheer on their boys. So we just get the stories when he gets back from practices and tournaments. We're excited that he's doing something that he loves so much.
So just like when we used to say, "Mom! I'm bored." And our mom's would reply, "I have lots for you to do if you are looking for something to do....." I still have piles of laundry waiting, disgusting blinds to dust, windows to clean, closets to go through, hundreds of photos to scrapbook, a frig that is never full enough to shop for, but I just don't have any motivation to do any of it.
I think I just need a few days to wallow in my pity-party and then I'll figure out a new normal. That is, after I help Jordan pack up his room this weekend and move away from home next Wednesday.
Thanks for listening to me whine.
I'm sure that homework projects and long drives to dance in Provo will kick my behind in gear in no time.
















































