I feel like a kid who just started summer break and is missing all of her friends and the routines already. The last few days have been REALLY DEPRESSING around here. I haven't had little ones around during school hours for years, but I've filled up my days with housework, errands, my bow business, and with SPORTS!
I miss my kids already and all of their daily summer adventures. Even if it just meant driving them to their friends' houses and hearing a comment or two about their day.
Bows have slowed down to a mere trickle so that doesn't consume more than a few days a month now. I guess you could say I'm semi-unemployed or semi-retired, whatever sounds best.
But last night I think I figured it all out. What I really am missing right now is FOOTBALL! This is the time of year where I run around all day to get everything done because our evenings are spent on the bleachers watching 2 to 3 games a week! I miss packing the car with blankets (for padding and for warmth), filling up jugs of ice water, making game snacks to munch on during the games, spending my mornings on the phone or in meetings with the other team moms planning the weekly dinners and game parties, making dinner plans for those away games, etc, etc, etc! That's been our life for the past 7 years! I miss seeing all of my "boys" on the team and catching up with all of their parents on the bleachers. Many of those boys have now received mission calls and many more have moved away to college. We plan on going to a few games, but it just won't be the same. Jordan is helping Tom with Max's 6th grade team as the quarterback coach so we'll have to go see a few of their games too.....it's going to be hard to cheer for AF though, but we'll do our best.
I wasn't prepared to say goodbye since we thought we still had 3 years left of it with Jake. But he decided that golf was more his thing. He worked DANG HARD all summer long on improving his game and we are all so thrilled that he made the high school JV golf team! But it's not a sport where parents can come and watch and cheer on their boys. So we just get the stories when he gets back from practices and tournaments. We're excited that he's doing something that he loves so much.
So just like when we used to say, "Mom! I'm bored." And our mom's would reply, "I have lots for you to do if you are looking for something to do....." I still have piles of laundry waiting, disgusting blinds to dust, windows to clean, closets to go through, hundreds of photos to scrapbook, a frig that is never full enough to shop for, but I just don't have any motivation to do any of it.
I think I just need a few days to wallow in my pity-party and then I'll figure out a new normal. That is, after I help Jordan pack up his room this weekend and move away from home next Wednesday.
WAaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Thanks for listening to me whine.
I'm sure that homework projects and long drives to dance in Provo will kick my behind in gear in no time.
5 comments:
I TOTALLY know what you mean! I go into a funk every time Cassie heads back to school! I miss her ALL DAY LONG! I think the worst part of everything you said is the trying to figure out what the new norm is......and adjusting to it! GOOD LUCK WITH THAT....let me know what you figure out.....I'm still trying to work that one out!!
I have to say that I didn't want school to start this year either. I have been missing my boys too and it's only been two days! It must be so hard to have one of your children leave the nest!! I just can't wrap my brain around the fact that your kids are THAT OLD!! Wow, time flies.
Definately come to Max's games, Jordan is doing an awesome job and it will be fun to watch the games together! Plus, we will have to do lots of lunch dates to fill up your time!
I enjoyed reading this post because I think it's something everyone relates to from time to time. Transition periods are always a little rough. Some of them are exciting, and others not so much.
Your kids are very blessed to have you as their Mom, and Brendan is very blessed to have such an amazing person as his wife.
You teach all of us so much. Hang in there... waiting for things to settle into a new "Normal" can be tiring and a bummer, but at least you know they will.
:-)
Pam
I can totally understand the lack of motivation feeling when you would rather be doing something else, although I doubt my "something else" would be watching all that football. :)
You are an awesome mom to be so supportive of whatever your kids want to do, they are lucky to have a mom like you.
Thanks for a fun post that I think we can all relate to!
it's okay to WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!! I have just the cure for you - pack up everything and come visit us this weekend!!! :) We can't wait to see you guys in October! (And this weekend too right?)
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